New Years
The new year has come and I have still yet to do the things I anticipated. It has only been three full days, so I could cut myself some slack, but I’d rather not. This week will hopefully consist of me figuring out details of time for when I can start forcing myself to act on the changes I’d like to see this year around.
I’ve been living with my roommate, Doug, for a few months now and we’ve lived together briefly before this. He is a former Marine and has recently started attending Full Sail for a degree in Film. The ambition he has along with his professionalism and his drive to work is astounding. Granted, I haven’t done much, but he has done more in the past year than I have in the last three years. Not only has he done more, but his bare minimum is phenomenal. Check out his Vimeo Account.
I think about the community that I am part of and I know that it is full of artists and talented people utilizing their gifts. I came and went through Full Sail with a desire in film and ultimately pursued photography for a small amount of time, and then I got burnt out and stopped. I am a jack of all trades. Not amazing at one thing but decent in several things. I can get around in sports, I can talk shop with technology and video games, and I can enjoy riding a bike. More times than not I find myself observing something; whether it be a piece of art, a video, a photograph, or perhaps someone on an adventure or doing something that I haven’t and I desire to do just that. I tend to pick up things that others do and I don’t do what I myself want to do. I suppose if I want to do what others do that that becomes my own, in a way.
I look back at everything that I see and desire and I realize what I know and I ignore it. I’ve realized for the past year that I love music with all of me and that I desire that ultimately as a passion. Whether or not I decide to do something with it is up to me, and I hope I pursue. I seem to get so caught up in the world and what people can do that I find things that fascinate me, which seems to be everything, and I go to it. Not only do I go to it, but I put all my eggs in one basket. My friend Rachel was in town over the holidays and we had a good conversation where she reminded me what I should already know; that I don’t have to go to one extreme or the other. I can do multiple things, but still have my heart pressed firm in what I do.
I desire for this to be a year of pursuit of what I desire and what I know I want to do. I desire for this to be a year of learning and achieving good things. That I don’t try to see what else I can find that others do. I desire to not be envious of good things that people do. Follow your heart, Casey.